[Nowhere was the feeling of bewilderment and betrayal stronger than among Clinton's political allies -- from cabinet members to White House aides -- who had put their careers on the line for him. Yet there were no immediate apologies to staff members; these would come only two days later, after Clinton read in the New York Times that he had supposedly called in several key staff members and begged their forgiveness.] It was hard to imagine how he could do this to us, ... and how he could be so incredibly reckless . . . Mike McCurry